So sleepy, must go physio

Okay ramble number too
The scan showed no sign of intersection syndrome or the other thing in my thumb, in saying that she said there are some cases they don't show on a scan at all, they might show on a MRI.
For the mean time she is referring me of for nerve ending tests, to rule out carpal tunnel.
From there I am being refereed to a Pain management specialist - not an Acc one YIPPEE
She is reluctant to open my tendon's up as she has had one case where she did and the tendons were fine, and she has regretted it ever since, I'm happy for now to try other avenues, she says there are plenty of pain medications I have not yet been offered that may work, she would rather a pain management specialist did the recommendations, there are only two in town she refers to , her favorite sadly being away on maternity leave.

If in a few weeks time, if I'm still not good she would like me to consider having a steroid injection that would be injected by a specialist in that area - gosh she really likes to everything properly, I would then be monitored by her 6 weeks afterward for the results.
I think I will chat this over with my physiotherapist.

WOW, it really was summer this morning, the sky was blue the heat was caressing everything in sight, Husband was at the beach catching the best waves, I was bringing in washing no sooner than I had put it out, fluttering around the house doing the last minute prep's for the festive dinner.
after a very yummy brunch we headed out for our coffee beans and last gift for our guests and the sky darkened the winds picked up taking everything with it.
We made it home as the rain set in, winter was gracing us for the afternoon.

The roasts came together perfectly in timing, the Yorkshire pud cooking well, the apricot chicken complementing the turkey, the kumra soft and sweet the new potatoes smelling so fresh, the fenneled carrots so tender and the gravy oh yum.

The lemon meringue pie filling the last corners, the company was great and the evening was so relaxed.

Having this a week early just took the stress of everything it was a night to remember.
The last minute gift being real pleasure to the new owners :)

What do you think was going through this person's mind today.

He walked into the shop and walked straight towards the counter,
He was acknowledge as some one who was going to ask a question, when no came I returned to my paper work, his hesitation at the counter provoked, and can I help you?
him: Oh I just came down town to see whats about,
me: Oh nice.
him: How long have you been here?
me: 3 years.
him: Oh! he leaves.

and when the anti flams do kick in the body slumps and begs for sleep.

whatever is wrong with my arm is hotter than the air around me and that is currently sitting at 24.8 c, I can feel it burning.

The second day of my questioning thoughts.

The age old saying that we must practice what we preach, is very easy said and extremely hard to do, why is it that we as humans fight hard to stop change in our very own lives, we think if we did it would be better, therefore shouldn't we strive for that change?
Why are we so comfortable with the saying better the devil you know than the one you don't.
How many opportunities of success, delight and love have we missed by staying the same?

This thought was provoked by my son, a friend and myself

I really don't understand people who say they will help and they don't, what is it they get from saying they will help? Does it make them feel they are a better person? Or do they wish to give false hope and make the person seeking the help even more stranded, because that help just isn't coming?
Sure people get busy, yet if you've offered to help then thats what you should do.
If I ever offered to help some one and didn't I would really hope the person would hit me up about it.

channeling, positivity, channeling a change for the better, don't let it waver gotta keep channeling, got to keep moving forward

ugh, I will one day shoot the voice in my head, which will no doubt be the day I die.
I've been allowing it to beat me up for somedays now, and there is nothing I can do about it till I see the right person, unfortunately I don't know when that is and I'm going to feel like a right idiot when I ask. Does your head hurt from reading that mind does!

I didn't have a MRI I had a scan, I kept wanting to ask where the baby was!
I dunno she said lot all in medical terms and her attempts to say it in real English didn't help, the down side of it all is what we thought was wrong is fine and dandy. I don't know wether to be relieved or be worried, cause it might just all be damaged nerve endings and there doesn't seem to be a lot people can do about that. I kid you not I'm not going to live the rest of my life living with this "pain' I'm not grrrrr.

2012 was awesome in the special effects area, I love that my son likes these kinds of movies :) YAY we still share something in common.
This year my mum did one better than her normal super cool 10 movie vouchers for husband and I she did 10 for her grandson too!
we have an aweful lot to see
already been to see
Where the wild things are
2010
Next we have
Avatar
under the mountain
sherlock homes
Percy Jackson
Harry Potter
Alice in wonderland
wonder how I became a film critic?

Still no luck on a new job, getting more depressed each week finding the energy to go to work.

have nearly sorted out all my junk and have a better idea of all the stuff I own, now the plan is to make it all into something, its time to be creative its time to do something! Keeping in mind I need to leave space in that room for Kylie when she comes to visit.
Keep wanting to sell all the make up, think I should wait till after Sonya's wedding.... which reminds me I should really get on to her hair some time early in the new year.

Was disappointed that WOW only got 30 minutes air time and that most of the people they followed where from another country.
Still feel too intimidated to enter :(