Since my first measurments on Feb 19th 2008 I have lost the following

Neck: 2.5cm
Upper arm: 5cm
Chest: 15cm
Waist: 19cm
Abdomen: 17cm
Hips: 20cm
Upper leg: 17cm
Calf: 8.5cm

I bought for my new uniform a size Small top from Max and two size 14 pants from Ezibuy :o)

I've yet to find out how much I weigh.

biggest thing on my mind is to quit or not, to go on line or not.
I'm not satisfied
My leader can be good at times. The first time I had her I asked for a transfer straight away, I felt empowered at her meetings, I no longer do.
They only just logged my address and stuff on my card, she has never checked my book, I asked her with a whole pile of doubt if I'd calculated my next goal after I'd receached my 10% and she said sure, i don't think she understood me, as I've gone straight from 10% to goal have I even got the right goal? The more I read other peoples posts the more I doubt I have, and hang on aren't I paying her to help me?
It seems I pay to get weighed, listen to her talk about all the chocolate she has eaten, and ask us all the chat and then I go home. The goldfish bowl isn't helping.
I'm losing my battle, I'm down, how long will this last?

I had chicken nachos for breakfast.
In my defence I haven't needed lunch
the chicken needed eating up
its the last day i will be home of the school holidays with just son and me
there was no ceral
there was no bread
and gward dammit I dreamed of them all night.

Now I'm going to put my new dress in plain sight and remind myself that if I gain weigh I'm going to look like I'm squished into it as its tight enough.


:p

and lots of it
sigh

Okay so yesterday I tried some self control, The only slip up I had was some extra Rye bread and some corn chips.
Breakfast coffee and fluten free fruit ceral.
Lunch was good, baked potato lite cottage cheese, chicken bits, carrot lettice cucumber, salsa
Dinner was
chicken bits, zucihini, brocilli, carrot, stir fry 1tsp rice oil, gluten free pasta with juice of one lemon and a hand ful of fresh basil.

snaks where a youghurt soya milk fresh banana frozen berry smoothie, two pieces of rye bread with marg, handful of gluten free corn chips with chedder cheese flavoring and another banana, I did manage 800ml of water and a 1/2 hour walk.

I lost the extra I put back on and a a few more grams.
I'm so shattered though, like @ 2pm I'm doing the dishes and my eyes are closing. I have no engery when I'm walking. 
I'm not even depressed at the moment.

The room that ww lease for our meetings is a corner building on a very busy crossing in the city, there are a set of traffic lights and foot traffic crossings either side of the building and 3 more of each facing the building. It takes a lot to walk into the building as it is in such an exposed area, the two external walls of our room are glass from floor to ceiling, with a wide orange band running around the building which only exposes your feet and if really tall your head.
3 weeks ago the owners took down the orange band on the windows that face the middle of the intersection, its honestly like a goldfish bowl!
Everyone sitting/ standing  at the lights are looking straight at the room, and everything is as clear as mud.
The first week it happened I felt extremely exposed  I was thankful I hadn't planned to stay as I had a lunch date. I missed last week as I was called into work. I walked past yesterday to see if they had fixed the problem and they haven't. If I go tomorrow and the leader doesn't say they are covering them back up or we are moving location, I will stop going. This is a personal issue for me, I don't mind sharing with other ww members and close family, but to sit in a glass room into middle of the busy city, is not my cup of tea.
As I only walk / bus there is no other ww meeting location for me, I can't believe the building owners have done this.
I hope tomorrow I return with brighter news.

I dropped 900gms this week at this rate I'm dropping only 2. something kilos amonth really thats just not good enough, I've become so laxed over the whole thing.
I'm only 3 kilos of the goal I wished for my birthday which is wednesday, so I can't really kick myself that much. Yet to reach what should be my true wieght at the rate I'm going now it will be december by the time I get there.
I think I need to start getting my snaxs and lunches sorted, as there have been a few days now where I've been caught out and extremly hungry and going without I' m sure thats not going to do much much good in the long run, I'd rather lose due to eating right.
I have noticed I keep having a matallic taste in my mouth and in the evening I feel like bringing my dinner back up. I work hard and making it stay down then some 3 hours later I'm hungry again - whats with that?

I've only done 4 glasses of water today I've another 4 togo. I did manage a banana, the nachos we had for breakfast though....... BAD ME!

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